I wish people would comment on my blog...

That basically encompasses how I feel.

So I had a great weekend. Andrew told me to write a cryptic blog post about a boy and I am sorely tempted. So all I will say is I had a great weekend, and I did not realize how amazing he is until Saturday night. I knew he was cool, but he is awesome. By the way this is someone different.

Snow...

It's been snowing here now for a week. I've had enough of it.

So at the moment I'm feeling pretty weird. While I was at work, one of the top curators came in to ask me some questions on a project I'm working on, and then started fixing stuff that I have never really worked on (there's another girl who works more on the physical aspect of our projects and I do more computer work). Anyway it was kind of weird, and he kept asking me if I was getting offended, which I wasn't because I really had no clue what was happening in that aspect of the work. Finally after he was done talking he goes "I feel like I have offended you. I'm sorry, but if there's something Cory (my boss) told you to do that I'm telling you different, then maybe you should talk to him." Well I told him I was never going to see Cory again because my last day is tomorrow. It was kind of a weird situation because Brad all of sudden just stopped and looked at me, saying "You can't leave here. You've been here for 3 years." Man, who would have thought I'd get emotional? I started crying (curses for being an emotional girl!) and said yeah it's crazy and I'm really sad to go, but I do have to graduate. Anyway I don't know why I wrote this story, and there really is no point, but I feel really weird to be graduating and have no job, no plan, and pretty much no life. It's no wonder I started to cry.

Christmas is finally here!

So for me it hasn't really felt like Christmas until just recently. It's been relatively warm in Utah until last Saturday-when it snowed! So there's finally snow on the ground, but not much.

As far as my life I've been pretty busy. Last week was full of Christmas parties on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. On Saturday I went on a date to the Mormon Tabernacle Choir Christmas Concert, which was AWESOME! It was a group date and one of my friend's dads works as (I think) secretary to the first presidency, so we got amazing seats in the 8th row on the plaza floor! I was only three rows behind Russell M. Nelson and I could see President Uchtdorf clearly from my seat. At one point President Uchtdorf was about five feet away-talking to my friend's dad (my friend was the only one not on a date, and he was sitting next to me with his family). Great seats, great concert, great friends...it all made it a wonderful night.

This morning I have also taken my first final. I think I got an A (it was written). I have three more left, but I'm not too worried. I think today's gonna be a good day-plus it's Brent's birthday! Happy Birthday Brent, ya old man! (Sorry I just had to find a way to plug your birthday in)

Okay, okay

You guys are all right. I am wrong. He's retarded. But I'm not going to explain that statement. Let's just say he's messed with me too many times this week.

Anyway, other than that life's been going alright. I finished my last HUGE project of the semester and so all I really have to worry about now are finals which start in a week and a half! Crazy! Last finals of my college career! It is a scary and wonderful feeling which you all can understand I'm sure. Unfortunately I am still jobless and that sucks. I don't know what to do. Everyone that is hiring is only hiring for seasonal workers, so that bites. But I continue to look.

So I find it rather interesting that recently a lot of people have been talking to me about a mission. Why?! I don't really understand it. It's always really random, and they all think I would make a great missionary. They must not really know me. But today was just funny. This girl in my ward was talking to me and telling me this story how she was talking to her dad about her sister possibly going on a mission when her sister turned 21. Then she switched to how she immediately thought of me while talking to her dad. When she was done telling her story she asked what I thought about a mission, and if I would like to serve one when I turned 21. I was like, "uh...cool. Well...I've thought about missions a few times in the last couple years, but I'm not sure it's quite the thing for me. And I'm 22...not 19. I actually am graduating in two weeks" (she had thought I was 19). Her: "Oh well then this is a perfect time for you. You're single with no prospects, you don't have to worry about school and graduating later, you have a college degree which I think is a plus, and you can talk to pretty much anyone anytime." Me: "Oh...um...hmmm...wow. I guess you're right. I'll have to think about it. By the way, who decorated your apartment. It's really nice." Granted I didn't come up with the best way to change the subject, but luckily for me it worked. I really don't know why a lot of people have been feeling the need to tell me to go on a mission, or to consider it more, but I guess they must be listening to the spirit a lot better than me. Haha, just kidding (kind of).

Frustrated

So if you couldn't tell, I'm a tad frustrated. School just bites, but that's not really the problem. One would think that since I grew up with four brothers that I would understand boys. Um...no, apparently not. Guys are extremely confusing! Well...at the moment, specifically one guy. I just don't understand him! He calls me up to hang out, he comes by my apartment to visit, we talk a lot on facebook, not to mention we flirt a lot when we hang out, and the signals (as far as I can tell) are there that he is interested in me and it drives me nuts. At times I get in this mode that I know we're just really good friends, then he does something really annoying like hold me when I'm cold outside (which is just awkward), or call me out of the blue and ask to hang out. And then when I start to think he's interested again, we're talking about hanging out the next weekend and he mentions he's going on another date. Seriously? wtf...
Anyway I just needed to get that out of my system. Oh and a little update on the sidewalk...it is officially open! No more trying to find "shortcuts" to class!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Yay for Thanksgiving and being with family! I always enjoy being with family, especially when I can get away from Utah and school. Anyway to catch up for the blog I was able to spend a little time with Brent and his family on Saturday, Monday and Tuesday. I had a lot of fun-especially seeing Twilight with Tami and the girls in her family! Then I flew to Long Beach where Grandma and Grandpa picked me up and took me to Inn'n'Out. Yummmmm... Then yesterday Jeff, Andrew and I spent the day at Knott's. It was so much fun! I had a blast! Today I just kind of relaxed. Greg and Ellen came down with her brother, and Uncle Jim Aunt Becky and their crew came (which was only Lauren and Elyse). Played winner, as usual I kind of got the dumpy prizes, but I always expect it so it was still fun. But that's about all the interesting stuff. I was really sad when there was no apple pie for thanksgiving. I love Apple pie, but there was only mince and pumpkin. Ew.
Wow...I just realized that this sounds like one of my journal entries. Plus everyone who reads this thing knows what happened. Whatever though-I spent the time to write it so I'm not deleting it.
So being as it's Thanksgiving day I know it's ritual for people to write down a million things that they are thankful for so here are mine:
I'm thankful for...
1. My family
2. An education (even though it seems like it's become a bit useless-history?! Seriously...what was I thinking?)
3. Friends
4. Health
5. A place to live (Fresno and Provo)
6. Food (gotta love it!--specifically cheeseballs and wheat thins, and chocolate covered raisins at the moment)
7. I got to come home! (I almost didn't)
8. A good job (even though I only have it for 3 more weeks)
9. A car (oh wait I don't have one)...
10. A sense of humor. Imagine if you didn't have one? My roommate Merica doesn't, the poor girl. Doesn't understand much...how sad.
11. My laptop
12. This may sound weird, but I'm grateful I don't have a gap anymore (It's almost been a year since my teeth have been fixed and I LOVE it!)
13. I'm thankful for the experiences that I've had in my life that have made me Me.
14. I'm thankful for Tomato and cheese sandwiches (those things get me through the semester! If I didn't have them I don't know where I'd be).
15. I'm thankful that I'm tall (relatively)-I was thinking about short people yesterday because at knott's I saw this short group of people and they were STRUGGLING keeping up with their tall friends. Poor shorties.
16. I'm thankful for the internet. (Sudoku, facebook and blog stalking!!!)
And 17. I'm thankful for the Gospel and the church. I don't know where I'd be without it in my life.
That's not all I'm thankful for, but if you couldn't tell my list just kept getting more and more random. My bad. I just started thinking about a ton of different things and I'd think yeah I AM grateful for that. Anyway I thought I'd stop while I was ahead. But here are my parting words to you all: HAPPY THANKSGIVING! Now...let's get down to business: CHRISTMAS!!!

Ugh.

This week was LONG...I had 3 papers due, and homework every day for my logic and finance class. Gross. However I also hit my one month mark left for school so that was a happy feeling. And I'm going to California on Tuesday! Yahoo!
Anyway I'm in finance class right now and I am so tired and bored. My roommates and I stayed up fairly late hanging out with some guys in my ward. They came over last night and took us out to play Broom hockey at Seven peaks. Then we just ended up chatting until about 1 AM. Then I couldn't sleep, and had to wake up at 7:30 for school. But it was fun, so it was worth it. However tonight looks bleak again. My roommates are ALL going on dates again (yes even the weird ones). What to do...
Oh so I don't have any embarrassing or cool stories to tell (unfortunately), but can I just say that I am really tired of snorting when I laugh really hard? It's quite mortifying.
Anywho class is almost over so I'm out.

Bored once more...

Tonight is Friday. The night where people my age should be going out and having fun with friends-more specifically boys. Sigh...unfortunately all of my guy friends are on dates, and so are my roommates-even the weird ones! Makes me question what's wrong with me. Haha, just kidding. My TA in my history class is a woman in her forties. We sit next to each other and talk almost the entire time. Anyway today she was asking me what I was doing tonight and I told her about my lame night. Funnily enough she thought that was weird and now wants to hook me up with her nephew. Who, when I looked him up on facebook (she made me do it in class!-what a funny TA) is quite a cute guy-but probably too cute. I always feel weird about getting hooked up with cute guys.
Well I was fully intending to do my homework tonight, but I keep putting it off. Now I'm watching Oklahoma! What a funny and odd movie. But I love it. Oh but while tonight is lame tomorrow I'm really excited. I'm going with some of my guy friends to Grantsville. Now what's in Grantsville you ask? Nothing really, but we're going shooting! This might sound stupid, but I've kind of been a little scared of guns. I've never really understood the appeal, nor have I ever really had the opportunity to spend time around them. And I went on a date last semester with this guy who kept a gun under his car seat and he pulled it out to show me. It was really odd and weird. Made me feel a tad uncomfortable.
Ah anywho funny stories.

It's who I am

I am awesome...that is all.


So that's all I was going to write, and then when I looked at my blog I realized that it looked a bit cocky. Therefore I felt the need to explain myself. I was walking around on campus today and I realized (not that I haven't realized this before) that I am graduating soon and a ton of those poor suckers (fellow students) still have quite a bit of time left at this institution of learning. Not that that's a bad thing, but I am SO glad to almost be done. However this leaves me with a life to figure out. Gross. Anyway back to me being awesome. I realized that I am pretty amazing for finally finishing school, in addition to actually still studying in my last semester of college (kind of). Also as I was walking around campus I realized what weird people there are at BYU (although I also realize that BYU is quite the homogeneous playground and there are weirder people, and more of them, elsewhere). It is here when I realize that I am pretty cool and people just don't realize it. Therefore time to publish my awesomeness on my blog. That way the three people (hey tami-there's a shout out for you now!) who read this blog can pass on the message about how cool I am. Neat.

Well I guess that about sums it up. Have a good day/night!

Support Groups and Spaceships

Funnily enough I haven’t been bored that much in class lately. Therefore no new blogs for a few days. Nice. However at the same time not being bored means having work to do which means an unhappy and stressed Melanie. Wonderful.
Yeah my logic class is insane. When I got into this class I thought it was going to be more philosophy and thoughts and what not. Oh no…not true. It’s like mathematical equations of logic problems. It bites. I have to study a lot and I still don’t get it half of the time (and the midterm is next week…awesome).
Hey so a continuation on my story of my golden shoes. I mentioned to my friend at work a few days ago my embarrassing story of me jumping into that canal. Anyhow a few years ago he had been walking in the same place walking to church, when he saw some new tennis balls (and a lot of them) in the canal. He looked in, saw that it looked dry and jumped down. Oh nope-not dry! He sunk in about 6 or 7 inches and he was in his suit! Haha, it cracked me up. I wonder how many of us have jumped into the canal, because like my friend I realized when I got out that there were other spots where people had jumped in (which we hadn’t noticed before)-boy are we dumb! But there are others out there. I’m nearly tempted to start a facebook support group for those who’ve jumped in that canal.
So I was just thinking about last night. Today is my friend Scott Johnson’s birthday. Last night my roommate Liberty and I made him a present—a spaceship!!! Out of a large cardboard box. Seriously, it is amazing. We gave it to him and I think he might have thought we were strange but it is the coolest thing I have ever seen in my life. We had little pouches of candy (a morale booster, and brain food), and a lot of “buttons” telling what to do if having certain problems and what not. Anyway it was awesome (and so are Libby and I-haha). I wish I had taken pictures (but Scott did so maybe I’ll steal them and put it on here). It was spray painted gold, but we ran out so on the top we put aluminum foil and had flumes and whatnot sticking out. Oh boy…

Goals

So I've realized lately that I'm kind of a punk. Well actually, I realized this a long time ago, but I'm going to try and be better. This last weekend I spent a lot of time reflecting on my life and how I react to certain aspects of it. My goals for the future: be more patient, don't complain to people (they don't care and it just brings 'em down). When I am feeling down I need to not snap at people. I realized that sometimes I sound more upset than I really am (and this, funnily enough makes people uncomfortable). In addition I need to be a better student. I keep getting distracted and want to play at night, especially since my roommates aren't going to school at the moment.
To move on from goals, I need to figure out my life. Any ideas? The last few days I kind of made up my mind that I wanted to stick around. But this morning, on my walk to school I kind of freaked again and thought "I really don't want to stick around. What is there to stay for? Nothing and no one. So what to do now?" Basically in my dream world someone would come up to me on the street, realize how awesome I am just by looking at me and offering me full-time job, with benefits, 1 mile from an inexpensive apartment in California. Wouldn't that be neat? Ah well...it's too bad dreams don't come true

Turning 22

Happy Birthday to me and Andrew!!! Yay for us. The one day where we can be selfish and it's okay. But we're not selfish because that's just wrong. Anyway today wasn't terribly exciting, but over all it was pretty good. Andrew woke me up this morning at 7:45-who does that?! But I was excited to hear from him (we talked a million times today and I enjoyed it). I went to work, did some homework, and went out to PF Chang's with my roommates and some guy friends in my ward. Very fun! Unfortunately there aren't any truly memorable moments that I can share with my many readers! ;) Haha (although word is getting out-hey Brent and Greg!)

I am so much better

That is right. I am better...than my brothers at this blogging thing, and they don't even know it. It used to be that when I was bored I would blog stalk people, but it seems as though no one is updating their blogs anymore. So what am I supposed to do when I get bored in class? Well...now I write on my unpopular blog. Yay (note the sarcasm).
So today I made it to my classes without incident. My roommate's fond farewell lately has been "don't go off roading and ruining your shoes today!" Lovely isn't it? Funny incident though. My roommates and I went running a few miles yesterday and we decided to run by the sidewalk where I got stuck in the mud. But guess what? My shoes were no where to be seen! I wonder who found them and if they kept them, or threw them away. I really did like those shoes, and it made me sad to see that they were ruined...and now they're stolen! Haha, whatever though. I wish them luck with a huge pair of mud encrusted golden shoes.
Other than that I've just been living life. School is keeping me busy, even though I never want to do my homework. The boy situation is just annoying and I'm trying not to like certain people. And to top it off, I am still searching for a job and where to go after I graduate in December. So...I guess in a way a lot is going on in my life. And tomorrow is my birthday! Happy birthday to me! For once I'm rather excited for it, even though (as I joked with my twin brother) I'm turning 22, which in Mormon years is like 50! Haha (I'm kidding), kind of.
No but seriously my birthday usually sucks, last two years I did school stuff almost the entire day and when I came home I just kind of sat around and did nothing. And growing up my family didn't really celebrate our (my twin brother and myself) birthdays. I think my parents got tired. In addition we had seminary before school, then wouldn't get home from school until late (because basketball usually started the week of my birthday), and then it was musical (for our stake) time and we had practice for that from 7-9 PM. Then we'd get home and have to go to bed. Pretty crappy huh?

...so I just had an epiphany. I think one of the reasons why I don't get along with Tawnie and Merica as much as I do with Liberty and Shay is because Merica and Tawnie are the oldest of their siblings, while Liberty, Shay and I are the youngest. The older ones are used to getting their way and bossing around the younger ones. Plus we just have different personality traits. I think I'm going to have to kick this theory around a bit more.

Confused

That is what I am...pretty much about everything in my life. And I wish I could read/understand people.

Just my luck!

So I realize that it's stupid to write on here and not tell anyone about my blog, but I don't care. I just do it because I'm bored.

So today I was a complete and utter idiot. I was on my way to school this morning, running a tad late, when I decided to take a short cut. When I walk to school on mondays, wednesdays and fridays I go around the school to get to the RB rather than go up then down through campus. It seems easier, although longer. Anyway there are two sidewalks that cut through the back to where I needed to go, however one is officially closed and the other is more unofficially closed. The closed sidewalk is right next to the tennis courts, and south of the Smith Fieldhouse. The unofficially closed sidewalk is this brick sidewalk on the hill next to the aforementioned sidewalk.

I made a decision that it would be a lot faster if I cut through the unofficial sidewalk, even though for me this is a pretty rebelious act (pathetic isn't it?). As I was almost to the end of the sidewalk I realize there a ton of workers down the hill who can probably see me. I freak out and worry that I'm going to get in trouble so I try and find a way to keep going without being seen. Well next to this brick sidewalk is a ditch/canal sort of thing. I've walked in it before and I checked to make sure it was dry before I jumped in to walk the last twenty something feet. As I jump in, oh I realize that it really isn't dry. It's mud!!! And tricky mud at that. I sink in about 7 inches and then quickly pull myself back out of that mess. However my shoes got stuck...lovely. I tried pulling them out and then realized that they were a lost cause and just left them. Feeling extremely stupid, and embarassed (but glad no one was really around to see my moment of idiocy), I call my roommate and tell her I have an emergency and need to be picked up from school. I walked to where I was going to meet her barefoot, and by the time she picks me up have leaves stuck to my inch thick of mud on my jeans and feet. Lovely. Needless to say I went home, got cleaned up and decided that I wouldn't be attending my classes for rest of the day. I didn't want to push my luck.

Football games, concerts and friends

So after I was bored yesterday and started this blog I got ready and went to the BYU-UNLV game with my roommate Shay. We had a lot fun and really enjoyed the experience. A thank you to Tawnie and Scott for our tickets (not that they will ever read this, but I'm not ungrateful). Shay and I sat out in the sun and fried, but really enjoyed the fact that we beat BYU (even though it seemed a slow game-every time we scored, they scored).
Afterward went home, got a little homework done and got ready to go with friends to a private Goo Goo Dolls concert (for Nu Skin-we got our tickets for free from a friend who works there!). It was pretty enjoyable, but kind of strange since there were a TON of older individuals in the audience (only there because they worked for Nu Skin, not because they really knew the band). Anyway the concert was at the Salt Palace in Salt Lake and was really fun. Afterward went to Chili's for "dinner" at 11.
Overall I must say this was a great weekend before birthday.
Oh and in addition, I realize that people often have funny anecdotes they share on their blogs, I however am new to this blogging business (and very boring) and will most likely just share what I have done over a period of time since I find that interesting.

I can't believe I'm finally doing this

It's funny. I'm starting a blog. I know a lot of people often say to themselves they would never start a blog. What's the point? I kind of feel the same way, except I've been getting rather bored lately and I thought, what a better way to spend time than to start one and express my own life and random thoughts? Plus I figure no one's going to read this anyway.
So just to start out (if in the future I'm wondering at where I was in life when I started this thing) I am in my second senior year BYU and am graduating this December. The last few months I've been freaking out in my head and wondering what i will be doing with my life. I'm graduating with a major in History and minor in Communications. Everyone is either continually telling me that gives me a lot job opportunities, or I'm screwed and good luck! I don't know what to do. Should I stay in Provo after I graduate and get a job here, or should I go home and try to get a job there? My first preference would be to stay in Utah and live in Provo because there are so many other people my age here and with the same beliefs. However I want to sell my contract to the place I'm staying at now because I have a couple roommates who are a little odd. But I also have some really awesome roommates who I love a ton!
That's my big concern for the moment. Other than that I don't worry too much about school, but I miss having a more social social life. Speaking of social lives it feels so weird to get on facebook and every week have a new friend of mine get engaged! I'm getting to the point where I have no more single friends left. This may sound weird but in a way I'm extremely jealous. They've found someone who loves them and wants to spend the rest of their lives with. At the same time I'm incredibly sad. We're at a point in our lives where we can do anything (it seems like). This last summer I had the time of my life traveling around for two months in England, Scotland, Wales and France. I saw some amazing stuff and can't wait to travel again (if possible).
For some odd reason this morning I am feeling rather blue. I can't seem to figure out why. I'm trying to change my life for the better-read my scriptures, pray more often, and have a better outlook on life. But it's funny when you haven't been doing this it is a lot harder than it seems to start up again. And yes perhaps I should be doing that rather than blog about it...well bite me! (just kidding)
Anyway I can't believe this is getting so long. I'm worried this might turn into an online journal and that would just be a little embarassing having my life on the internet for anyone to see. Haha...but on a serious note, how does one end a post?