He's pretty cool

Because Tami requested it (and because I can't sleep) I decided I would share details about Brandon. I feel kind of like a little kid saying some of these things, but whatever. He's nice, I think he's cute (but some people don't), he's the same height as me (which kind of bothers me...and I think it may bother him to an extent - he hates it when I wear heels). I love that he listens to everything I say even if its weird. And when it IS weird and random he usually goes with it and never makes fun of me for my random thoughts (which pretty much everyone else does). He is so easy to talk to and we talk about everything (or so it seems). I'm really comfortable around him, and he's a lot of fun - although a bit of a nerd/dork. But in a good way. He often tells me I'm cute.

Anyway, Brandon is from Austin, Texas and he is majoring in molecular biology - he wants to be a doctor (possible a pediatrician) - he's way smart. He recently took the MCAT and is waiting to hear back from his scores (hopefully Tuesday). He enjoys reading, but not too much. He's a really outdoorsy type of guy - he's done a couple triathlons, enjoys fishing, some hunting and loves animals. He had about a million pets when he was getting older (which is weird to me - I don't really like animals all that much). I am 3 months older than him as well. Although I know it is stupid but being even a little older and the same height throws me off a bit.

Now to me being a jerk. I leave in a few days. We had been avoiding the issue which I am completely okay with, when tonight as we were taking a walk he randomly says during a quiet moment "I'm sorry if I've confused things for you." Me: "Oh I'm perpetually confused, nothing new there." I tried to give him an out of the conversation by making a joke, but he didn't take it. He continued on with it. It was a nice conversation - he basically said he wasn't sure what to think cause he had never liked someone so fast before. It threw him off. Which is funny, cause I'm super slow as well. Anyway he really likes me (his words), but didn't know what to do or think since I'm leaving. I don't know why he apologized. We didn't talk about me leaving, but I got the impression that he would like to further it somehow, but at the same time maybe not. I told him I liked him too (which I do), but I kept thinking that I doubt I'd date him if I were actually sticking around for the Fall. Andrew thinks it's because I'm terrified of commitment and if I can have some semblance of a relationship without having to deal with commitment I'm good. He may have something on that. And that is why I feel a bit like a jerk.

Oh and by the way I think I'm going to go private. Send me your email addresses (through facebook messages) and I'll put it down. I will be going private on Monday I think.

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This is how I feel...right now. For those of you wondering how things have been going with said boy. I would say...GREAT! He kissed me tonight. (I felt kind of awkward since it's been FOREVER!, so it's kind of like I have to relearn) Anyway I had my going away party tonight, and he stayed afterward to help me clean up (so nice of him). Anyway we went on a walk after it was over (I had to get out cause I'd been in my apartment practically all day baking).

For those with sensitive eyes don't read further. Anyway we went on a long walk and at one point we stopped walking, but continued talking. I leaned up against a chain link fence (we were walking by a construction area) and he started leaning forward - putting his arms by my head and leaning towards me. I kind of freaked out so I may or may not have started talking a mile a minute. Then for some reason (I can't remember why) he started talking about why he liked me (but he was teasing me) saying he liked me cause I have one ear bigger than the other (I told him the other night about my deformity). He took my head in his hands looking from one ear to the other saying how much he liked my ears (I know stupid, cheesy, but I liked it even though I was embarrassed), and how cute he thought I was. He then leaned his forehead on mine...and we kissed. Not much kissing went on, but we kissed a few times on the walk back - PG, cause I totally have to relearn this kissing business.

Well...yep...a boy likes me. And I like him...and I'm moving home. And I don't know what's going to happen. But for the moment it works. And it's nice.

So happy

Seriously I am so happy with life right now. Just knowing that I won't be at my current job for much longer makes me ecstatic! I know I don't really have real plans for the future, except moving back home and school, but I feel much less stressed than I have in a long time. I knew my job was holding me back, but I never realized how truly it was dragging me down.

In addition, I've just been having such a great week. It's been relaxing and fun. I've been helping people move, clean and pack, going to the gym, and going on dates. :) Of course it's when I'm about to leave, but better late than never right? I went out with this boy Tuesday, then Wednesday and we have plans to hang out on Friday. The one sad spot on my life is the fact that I will be leaving so many of my friends, but this is the right thing to do. I spent many hours, tears and prayers trying to figure out what to do and I feel like the fact that I feel so peaceful with life right now means I made the right choice. But lets hope I feel this way in a month after living at home for a space of time.

Awesome Day

So as you know my hours got cut, so I now no longer work on Mondays or Fridays - which I guess can be a good and a bad thing. Anyway today was AWESOME! I slept in until I woke up naturally (at 10:30), lounged around reading a book. I was asked to work about an hour so I went to help this kid in springville court, but after that...SEVEN PEAKS!!! Aunt Nancy gave me two free tickets so I took my old roommate Gini. I LOVED it! We went around and around the lazy river and just relaxed, went on the slides and even had a brief stint in the wave pool. We then went out to dinner for sweet potato fries (yes that is all we had and they were fantastic!). Then helped some friends and Gini with some cleaning/moving stuff. Went to the gym. Then finished Gini with her apartment and just chatted till pretty late. Anyway, it was such a relaxing and fun day. No school for another week or so, and no drama (I refuse to acknowledge work drama as I will be leaving next week).

Welp, I knew this day was coming

Today my hours at work got cut to 20 a week. Meaning I lose my insurance, and pretty much lose a lot of money I had hoped to save for school, and housing if I choose to stay in Utah. Which I may not be...since they have been hinting for me to leave. They told me that since I want to go back to school I can leave at the end of August, I'll just need to help them in the transition. As a result of my leaving I get more hours than I would have if I were to stay (I would have been cut to 12 a week). Crazy huh? So anyway, I'm leaving that job August 26. Now what will I be doing after that you ask? I have no clue

I had two interviews yesterday for part time job positions in libraries. We'll see how that goes. I felt pretty good in the interviews, but that isn't always a good thing. I may have been totally out there and retarded and not have known it. I'll give updates if I get one of the jobs. I've also applied for various library positions in both the salt lake and utah counties. No bites as of yet. If I don't get a job it looks like I'll be moving back home. Lovely...

In Living Color

Honestly, this is the coolest thing ever. Someone was able to take pictures from the 1940's and show them in color. It's kind of surreal to see log cabins, the clothes and the people in color. I don't know how to describe it - check it out.